Uhh. Why am I, if I'm not trying to go for it myself? I'm not going to, either. I don't function like that. And I was under the assumption he didn't either. But what if he just randomly decides to? I don't know, I mean, she's really cool and pretty, too. So she's got me beat on those departments. I think I'm reading too much into this. People are allowed to have other friends. Buh. I'm so paranoid. -___-

I'd like to write better stories about making out, but then I remember I know nothing about making out. WELP, guess I gotta go make out with random people and then write about it. Purely a writing exercise, mind you.

I am a failure.

So I got to thinking. There's so much to do. Brush your teeth or you get cavities or cancer or ... gingivitis. I hate brushing my teeth. I look in the mirror and my teeth look so yellow, it's ridiculous. Then I look at the whitening label on my toothpaste and scoff. I know it's supposed to be gradual, but I've been using whitening toothpaste for a long time with nothing to show for it. I'll admit that I only brush once a day, in the mornings. The dentist is always like, "brush yo' teeth three times a days, dawg!" It's a necessity, something you do for your own health. What bothers me is that we have to pay for such "bare necessities." food has to be purchased, and even if you grow your own food there are still tools to buy; plants don't really grow on schedule naturally. We have to pay for shelter, too, and most people live their entire lives paying off shelter, something primary. Like Thoreau says, is it not the house that owns us? We also have to pay for clothing, and even then people take this to an extreme.
In short, life is a business. In a world where most of us have to pay to be born (in a clean hospital), life is a business. Our lives are spent paying someone for anything and everything we do. I, for example, must graduate in order to obtain a paying job in order to pay them for things that are essential. Now, I'm not a communist nor do I know much about communism, so it's not like I'm making an argument for that. I'd just like to, for a moment, imagine a scenario where human tendencies do not skew our behavior. A world where people could all produce and obtain what they need, without greed taking over and hoarding anything. It sounds impossible--mostly because it really is--but it'd be nice to help our neighbor with a problem without "how will this make me money?" floating around our heads. Yes, capitalism encourages inventiveness and innovation, and all that is fine and dandy (how else do you think I'm writing this?) but my theory (if it can even be called that) only applies to the basic needs. Everybody is always bombarding us with how lack of care in any aspect could seriosuly hinder us (read: cancer), but only those who find themselves with the time (that they are not spending making money to pay for other necessities) and money get to not have oral cancer or gum disease. It just isn't very fair. People have tried to regulate this help, and people hate it. Then they don't regulate it, and people hate it. Perhaps we are not approaching this correctly or something, but maybe we should start thinking about it. Now, I'm just a teenager on the Internet, but whatever. I just hope no one claims my ideas, even though someone has already published various books on the subject, probably.

I'm in a bad mood. I don't really want to talk or write about it; hopefully I'll be over it soon.

On another note, I saw my math teacher on his motorcycle. A bunch of students crowded him:
"Mr. Gorenstein, you have a motorcycle?"
"Damn!"

Word for word.

Eh. And my plans for today fell through. I guess I'm not going to be distracted today. Man, I feel shitty. .(&yfdehfycgb

why in a world of such debauchery, I can never get any.

(To be continued.)

Yeah. Here I am, procrastinating again. Hmm. I don't really know what I think I'm going to accomplish by doing this, but you know. 99% of the time I get things done, but at the last second. It's extremely stressful, and I feel like shit all the time. It's getting ridiculous. And pretty sure it's contributing to my self-prescribed "depression," though I'm not a fucking pyschologist or anything. It's terrible, and it needs to stop. I want to say I don't know how to stop it, but that's untrue. I know what I need to do, I just can't bring myself to do it. And this fact makes me feel even worse. I'm not the type to blame anything on anyone (except maybe my mom, but I always feel bad about that too), so I don't even have that. I carry this thing around on my shoulders like a fucking monkey tha tells me how much I suck all the time. "Oooh, get over yourself, Angelica," you say? I'm trying. I always have to think that people think the worst of me, and it's getting exausting. I'm a pessimist, I admit it. The glass is half empty. Why is half of my raspberry lemonade gone? Good things will always come to an end, but I focus on that instead of enjoying the fucking lemonade.

Hi. So I like webcomics. Recently, my friend Stephen showed me Hanna is Not a Boy's Name and I just caught up with all the strips. Yay.

So anyway, I wanted to make a list of all the webcomics I usually read, mostly so when I'm bored & have nothing to do, I can actually catch up on these things.

• Questionable Content: my main webcomic, and anyone who knows anything about webcomics has heard of qc. Srsly.
• xkcd: I like webcomics about math, sarcasm and romance.
• Hanna is Not a Boy's Name: Yeah, I was just talking about this one. It's amazing. The art is amazing. Holy crap. Also, it's relatively new, and though there is no definite update schedule, it's totally worth it.
• Rock, Paper, Cynic: Also pretty sarcastic, but not as math-oriented as xkcd. Sometimes Peter posts short stories or his own songs instead of strips, but it's okay, they're good.
• Dinosaur Comics: The dinosaur should have convinced you by now. But if it didn't, the comic still rules. 
• YU+ME Dream: It's about lesbians. It's actually pretty flipping awesome once you get to the second part. The first part is good too, but the second part, MAN.

INFP

"Perfectionists, they may have trouble completing a task because it cannot meet their high standards."


"INFP - The "Dreamer"
Jungian Personality Types (Free Test)
INFPs are introspective, private, creative and highly idealistic individuals that have a constant desire to be on a meaningful path. They are driven by their values and seek peace. Empathetic and compassionate, they want to help others and humanity as a whole. INFPs are imaginitive, artistic and often have a talent for language and writing. They can also be described as easygoing, selfless, guarded, adaptable, patient and loyal."

"creative, smart, idealist, loner, attracted to sad things, disorganized, avoidant, can be overwhelmed by unpleasant feelings..."
"The INFP needs to work on balancing their high ideals with the requirements of every day living. Without resolving this conflict, they will never be happy with themselves, and they may become confused and paralyzed about what to do with their lives."

"INFPs are usually talented writers. They may be awkard and uncomfortable with expressing themselves verbally, but have a wonderful ability to define and express what they're feeling on paper. INFPs also appear frequently in social service professions, such as counselling or teaching. They are at their best in situations where they're working towards the public good, and in which they don't need to use hard logic."

So anyway, I got this note app hing for my iPod and I was hoping tht I could write whiny stuff on it then post it here when I had Internet. But I'm only allowed 10 notes in the lite version. I complain a lot more than that.

So, anyway, I has a new iPod and it's pretty awesome 'cause now I can listen to all if my obnoxious music. Yaaaaaaaay. I can't edit these posts from here once I make them so I guess I'm going to have mistakes here or there, which o (I) do anyway with a regular keyboard. I'm going tonpreyens (pretend) that my iTouch is the iPhone I never had. I really do still want an iPhone, though.

rofl.

So guess who is still not writing her research paper? :D
Ok, ok. After this, I PROMISE I will turn off the internet and start writing. :/


My internet is extremely slow anyway, so I can't even really use it. I just really do not want to sit here and actualy do this, mostly because I have no fucking idea of what I'm doing. -___-

UGH. I'm going to go write another outline. OKAY, bye.

"Tuesday night, at the bible study, we lift our hands and pray over your body but nothing ever happens."

Hi. I'm Angelica. I like Pokémon and complaining. I'm a youngster, but I freak out like a 42-year-old mother. This is just me worrying about getting into college.

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